Today was NOT a good "mommy day"..... What I mean by that is that I feel like I was a FAILURE as a parent. I feel like some days ALL I do is Harp on my girls about this or that.
I am so overwhelmed with my house and TRYING to sort through CRAP and get rid of it before we move. Also with my marine gone for the next 3 1/2 weeks (he's already been gone for 1 week) my girls think I am a COMPLETE push over and walk ALL OVER ME! I had a heart to hear talk with them tonite before we had family prayer. It has gotten to be too much for me. I WISH. with EVERYTHING in me that I COULD sit and watch tv ALL day and NOT lift a finger! I WISH I didn't have any "chores" to do... but that just ISN'T the case. I am NON STOP on the go and my girls are the ones (along with my marine, when he is home) that gets to sit back and relax and MOM does EVERYTHING else!
A few weeks ago my marine and I sat down with the girls and divided up the chore list. We even told them that an ALLOWANCE would be given IF and only IF the chores were ALL done without having to be told ALL week! I thought FOR SURE money would help them get a move on it! I WAS DEAD WRONG! It hasn't helped a bit! I also bought new bedding for the girls room and curtains and all....thinking that if we decorated the room, it would help. Well they haven't even cleaned the CRAP off their beds so we could put the new bedding on (it's been 2 weeks since I got the bedding!)
Am I wrong in MAKING my girls do their "chores"? I don't think I am. We are TRYING to teach them responsibility. But it's not working out so good right now. I feel like a broken record. I had MANY jobs to do around my house when I was their age. By the time I was my oldest age (she'll be 13 next month) I was doing the laundry for all 8 members of my family! ALL OF IT! BY MYSELF! along with MANY other things.
So because I have been so stressed out, other than spending 2 hours cleaning and organizing my laundry/pantry room.... I have vegged on the computer, Blog hopping and Facebooking. Oh and I DID make this AWESOME Valentine's Day wreath (if I do say so myself)
But I have wanted to just ignore my house and the mess that it is. MAYBE I will be better tomorrow and get the motivation to do better. I asked the girls to think about how THEY can help and make things better to make our home better and peaceful (so mama doesn't go crazy!) Can't wait to hear their answers tomorrow.
Well I am off to do the dishes that DIDN'T get done by my girls. Oh the joys!
just a sidenote.... I went into the kitchen after finishing this post and on the wipeoff board of the fridge there was a note from Sydney (my 10 year old) saying this
Mommy I am sorry- Syd
How sweet is that. Man I feel like crap for getting mad at them.